Love you Lord.

i'm going to be completley honest.. i didnt really want to say it out loud..
or write it truthfully, but i have to.

This summer is going to be amazing, maybe even the best one yet.
Being able to serve God in so many ways with all my heart, which is the best feeling ever.

but im nervous to see you.. you make me feel something i never have before.
and even if i tell myself im over you, when i see you all those feelings come rushing back to me.
and part of me wants to wish something will happen, but deep down i know it wont..
so why am i getting my hopes up..yet again.

but i hope im proven wrong.
i hope God will show me this summer that this is really not the guy for me,
and i will be completley over him.
and you know what, God is good.
so where my feelings should be that is were they will be.

Lord; i know my focus will never stray,
but let this summer be entirley about serving you and coming to know you better.
learning new things and meeting new childern of God
i thank you for this amazing oppurtiuny,
and this amazing summer to come!
Amen

friends.

so over the last couple of days i have come to see how truly amazing my freinds are.

and how lucky i'm to have them in my life.

i think i would be lost with out them!

they give me hope, strength, and laughter in my life.
they make me who i'm.
over this past year i have had so many ups and down, like honestly i look back and it has been crazzy!
i have pretty much had my heart broken on so many levels, by so many people; boys, friends, everything i belived in at times.
but over this year i have come to meet some amazing people, great people, childern of God who serve there whole hearts.

-I meet these girls at camp; man have they changed me life, and been there for me like no one could ever understand, and i dont know how i will ever be able to thank them.

-Matthew; i dont think he could ever understand how much he means to me, he is one of those people who have more then one problem in there life, sometimes he has so much nasters going on; i dont know how i could ever be in his shoes. but you now what he has struggled through it this whole time. He is the one person i know i can always call and count on the pick up and talk to me for hours on end, his strength amazes me. i hope you already knew this, dont ever give up.

-Youth Girls, these girls are the reason i made it this year, they have taught about what is not worth my tears in life, and who should be beside me in 10 years. and they all know how much they mean to me.

-God; wow i have grown so much with him this year, connected on levels i never knew we could. Jesus Christ is the saviour of my soul.

don't ever forget it.

I loved this; right when I saw it.

he must become more, we must become less

I see my life, flash across the sky,

so many times have i been so afraid.

And just when i think i've lost my way,

you gave me strength to carry on.

You walked with me,

footprints in the sand and helped me understand where i'm going.

You walked with me when i was all alone,

with so much unknown, along the way, and i heard you say:

I promise you, i'm always there, when your heart it filled

with sorrow and despair, i'll carry you when you need a friend.

You'll find my footprints in the sand

The Lord will fight for you;
you need only to be still
Exodus 14:14

Y Y Y Y Y

thats right :)

Disney land.
Road Trip.
Here We Come :)