somebody said life wasn't fair; well somebody else was saying a prayer

so i was looking through xanga's today and came across this girl who i felt needed gods love so bad, cause i know she had it she just needed to be reminded and to know that some random person in some other part of the world gets her and is praying for her. and i told her that she was loved and yes things get hard but we woundn't know the good with out the bad, love without hate, smiles with out tears. nothing would have as big of a meaning. and on her page she had wrote two paragraphs that really broke me and where just so real. here they are:

"today in sunday school we talked about prayer. i want to write out how i feel about what we talked about. you can whine all you want. God is going to listen. no matter what, he always does. he's not someone that turns his back on you just because you stole his cookie or something. no, God is there all day, everyday. so often we only go to god when things are bad in our life or we really, really want something. yeah, god says he'll be there through all that. i mean, we're not perfect. but do you ever just slow down and thank god for letting you get home safely? or for a beautiful day he's blessed us with? maybe we should stop taking advantage of god's love for us. maybe we need to pay attention to him more than we do. maybe we should talk to god everyday and not just when we're whining or our mascara is running. "

"a couple of months ago, we did this activity at our youth group thing. (oh yeah, that sounds professional. thing, haha.) we were handed slips of paper and a brown paper bag. on the paper, we were told to write the biggest obstacles in our life. or things that were keeping us from god. at the time, my depression problem was just getting worse everyday. so on one of my pieces, i wrote depression, and i dropped it in the bag. i had another piece, so i wrote peer pressure. if i go to a party with alchohol, i don't care who tells me not to, i'm going to drink. that's just what kind of person i am. i dropped that one in the bag, too. this was supposed to represent us giving it to god and letting that worry and stress be lifted from our shoulders. maybe i wasn't paying enough attention or maybe i didn't let go of it. it didn't work. over time, i've noticed that those issues i've been struggling with are becoming less and less of a worry to me.

i'm so glad i can finally say that i know in my heart that i'm going to be okay."

this one boy; well he gives me butterflies.

these are like ubbbber cute!

one to the tree to the hill

"sometimes the hero makes the right choice but has
the wrong time, and timing is everything"

"i know you have been in love and hurt. you don't see
what i see, but you deserve to feel that way again"

"it sucks always being the footnote in someone elses love story.
you write your own story.
you choose your own path. but you cant choose who you love;
but you do get to choose if you open your heart to love or not"

you send your signals, i send flowers to the door.

and when the truth be told; i miss you.

lets face the day, i promise well be okay.

wipe your eyes. put on your make up and hide the fact that your breaking on the inside.

don't let anyone see how much your hurting. dont let people see you fall.

stand tall.

put a smile one and take on the world.

it will all come together.

'people always leave' but they come back, i can promise you that much.

everything has a reason.

there is a purpose for the pain, its called redemption.

pretty faces, beautiful words and stories that are never heard.

you're never alone. i promise.

hopeful.

this gives me hope. because i know its the truth.

and im so stoked for the years to come.

fri iens too the end.

friends are soo soo important. and so often i feel we take advantage of them. we dont tell them how much they mean to us. we forget too do that. but i dont wanna be like that. i wanna tell them that i there important too me. more than they know. they make me smile when all i can think to do is cry. they allow me to be crazy and laugh. but they calm me down and tell me to breathe. we go on random adventures and just be ourselves. love is something we so often abuse. but i always want to remind them how much they mean. i dont ever want someone to tell me that i dont appreciate them. but i really truly do. most days they brighten it. and on thoses days when i dont wannaa get outta get and its bound to be a bad day, they put a smile on my face.

i thank god for putting them in my life. and i thank god that he lead me to this group of people. a couple years ago my friends were not good for me and they were pulling me down and out. and god showed me that i needed to get out and that i need to make some new chooses. and i trusted him and at school i dont have many friends; not close friends. i have some people that i know and talk with and hang out with but never outside of school. but you know what im okay with that honestly. its okay, because i leave school and i go to people that love me and choose to spend time with me and truly care about me and are real, honest people. they are people in my life that i feel love me because of me. we are able to learn togehter and grow together. we get to watch each other grow up.. i cant wait to see where my friends are in 2 years, it blows my mind. i can see all this potential in so many of my friends, in all of them. and the things that they are gonna do to serve god and live over the next couple years, i cant even imagine all the stuff there gonna do. im so exicted to see where we all are in a couple years and how much closer we come together. and maybe even the new friends i make and the new friendships that are developed. the new lessons learnt. the new challenges overcomed. the new adventures that will have been taken.

long story short, i thank god everyday for you.

k.i, k.n, c.h, j.m, d.m, m.f, t.h, d.n, j.f, m.n, a.p, k.b, l.b

in one way or another these people have been there for me when i needed someone.

God gives hope.

"the great thing about gods love is we never know where it will lead us,but knowing it will lead us is our comfort"

someone commented on a blog saying this.
and it made my day MORE than you know.
sometimes when you think your gonna hit rock bottom something
pulls you up and makes you see the light, the hope.
thank you.
thank you God for pulling me up in my weakest moments.
i cant wait to see what may be in store for me and my future.

all we wanna do is grow up... untill its too late.

if you feel you need to cry run to my arms,

i wont ask why. wipe your eyes.

you're so much stronger than you know.

don't let it bring you down.

don't let it burn you out.

i wanna be able to pour

my heart out for once

and not have someone

try to come and clean

up the pieces.

maybe tomorrow will be a better day

stand still. look pretty.

i knew this was gonna be a big year; lots changing, lots of new challeneges,

meeting new people, missing people, people growing up, me growing up,

going into my gradding year, getting my n, growing closer to god,

become a stronger person and finding that strength from god.

maybe getting the oppurunity to travel to mexico or cuba

or somewhere completley different. getting a job.

going back to camp. reapiring lost friend-

ships. trying to help people more.

show gods love to the love-

less. showing the light

when all that can be

seen is pure dark-

ness. love and

let love.

but.. im not sure if im ready

for what might be about to happen.

fingers crossed.

God if it is your plan for me to go,

than i know you will pave the path.

lets stick it out.

i made a mistake. there is no turning back. you need to let go. i cant say its never too late. but its not now. you never believed in me. show me. takee control of your life. put a smile on. i really missed you. it was great too see you. it makes me realize how much harder i need to try. i want too see you more. today is a new day. what am i doing this for. for god. for a bright future. i got one shot. i dont wanna blow it. i dont wanna lose my chance. i dont wanna fall apart. i wanna stand up taller than before. i wanna become stronger in your name. every breathe i wanna take by your grace. i wanna fight really hard. and i know i can fight. but if your not gonna fight how do you expect me to fight. it takes two to make a friendship work. lets just be friends forever. never lose hope. and be stronger than ever. thank you. it will be okay. i promise that. you have lost site of god. what he offers your life. what he brings to you. i hope you find him one day. but until that day comes i will be here with you. i will help you. but dont ever expect me to stop believing. dont expect me to stop sharing his love with you. i will never stop sharing your love with the world. i thank you everyday for you. i love because you first loved me. i wanna thank you more than you could ever really know.

if you feel your hope is fading

you can count on my love.