He is good. He is faithful. He is powerful. He is forgiving.
He is love.
He knows what I need, even when I don't have a clue. He sticks around even when I make a point of ignoring him. He raises me up when I'm at my very lowest. He pardons me of every wrong I do. He is love. I am nothing.
He has forgiven me. He has forgiven me. He has forgiven me. He has forgiven me.
He has given me life. He has given me hope. He has given me a future. He has given me love. He paid the price, after all.
so... i know this girl. it's her birthday real soon, shes gonna be really old. but i can deal. cause this is how much i love her. i like her hair, it makes me happy cause its like the sunshine. honestly i love being around her, i love spending time with her. i know i can call her and be like "hey! boys suck. whats up?" and she'll be like "i know right, maybe we should go down stairs and drop our biggest kid off at the pool?" and kyle will laugh his head off. and say "HEY! you know what i wanna do? put on that pokka dot bikini girl!" so this is how our talks go. its really actually quite exciting. and you should be REAL jealous. you think it's hot out? nopppe. this girl will be in a scarf. i'm gonna take her picture cause i can't forget her! click.click. so.. this pretty much sums it up now doesn't it.. mhm, i love her! oh so lots. and i can't wait to see where God takes us this year. thanks for being there when i feel alone. thanks for loving me when i need to be loved. and i will always be there for you, forever and ever. through thick + thin. don't ever doubt it. and just in case you were wondering? where gonna go to NZ one day, you better believe it! :)
this is the first day of the rest of my life. i think i'm ready.i'm done living in the past, i'm done stressing out, i'm done trying to prove things to others, i'm done trying to impress people, i'm done. i'm ready to succeed, i'm ready to be the change, i'm ready to love you like no ones ever loved you, i'm ready to prove this to myself. i'm ready to serve God will all i got. i'm ready.
even time i even had a thought being down, grumpy, moody or anything to cause me to have a bad day. God didn't allow it. He made me laugh. He gave me determination. He gave me love and gave me passion. He reminded me what my purpose was. He gives me hope.
"On the outside, you know that you’re not that same naive kid anymore. You’ve been through too much lately. But deep down, at your core, there will always be apart of you that rejects reality, that is eternally hopeful."
wow. so this is a new year. this is a new start. it's grade 12.. i have been waiting for this year to come for so long! and know that it's hear it feels like any other year. but more than it being my grade 12 year.. this is my year to be available for God! this is the year that i'm gonna make a difference, i'm gonna make an impact. and i'm gonna decide how i'm going to be spending my life.. what i'll be doing. God is so goood! and he is giving me so much and showing me that i have potential.. that he is gonna do great things through me, through you. we can't even imagine right now what he has plan.. God i'm gonna need you to direct me this year.. it's gonna be the hardest year yet; but i know i got you on my side. thats how i can wake up every morning and know i can make it through; cause i'm not alone.. never have been, never willl be. thats how i can make it through. it's a battle every morning, every day. but i know you win that battle and i'm just a warrior; fighting so that your love can be showed. and this year i'm into the last year of high school, i don't want to let it pass me by Lord.. and knowing that i didn't make a difference in it. so show me how the love these kids and where you need me to be and where you need me to be serving you, i will go. i'm clay within your hands. this year is gonna be so hard! but i know i can make it through, and i can be doing your will every step. Lord show me where to do your will and how. i will serve you in the waiting. i will worship you in the waiting.
i'm ready to get out! and i'm ready to serve! and cross the line! and take risks.
"I'll tell you something. This is your one chance. You're going off to college soon, and this is your one and only chance to leave. Get out. I don't care where you go; the midwest, California, just go. Get out there and see the world. Cause after college, you're gonna need to have an actual life. And then life passes you out. Take this chance. Because I can promise you, you won't get another. " -Elizabeth Coleman
