i miss you.

i really, reallly do.

and i need you,

as hard as this is for you to believe.

i do.

you are loved, no matter what.

keep going, looking forward and moving on.

God has huge things in store for you kid; don't let this get you down!

smile and remember this too shall pass.

movealong.

this year.

who's stopping you from being happy?

what's stopping you from being happy?

why aren't you happy?

what makes you happy?

think of all the things that make you happy; make you smile.

got em? all the things, people, places.

now go out and do those things.

go out and be with those people.

go to those place.

what's holding you back?

now is your time. now is the only time.

life's too short to sit around and wait for the righ

t moment,

or the right circumstance.

NOW is the only time you have.

i have some big plans for this year.

and i intend to make them happen

and see them followed through.

your such a blessing to me.

there's these 2 boys.

they've changed my life.

i mean that.

i meet them on one of the biggest journeys of my life.

they brought laughter and joy to my world.

they challenged me in new ways, brought me out of this little shell that i created.

they changed how i view things, how i view the world, my friends, my self..

they taught me to not take anything for granted, i was reminded to live each day to the fullest,

to not take advantage of any moment or anyone.

but they also have shown me to stick up for myself and the people i love..

that if someone doesn't love you or respect you, you don't need that.

these boys have changed my life.

end of story. thats all folks.

they will never be able to comprehend how much they mean to me.

and im okay with that, because i know.

i will never take them for granted.

don't be afraid.

im so unbelievably blessed.

i think this year has been...

one of the most amazing years of my life, actually it has been.

but it has also been one of the most challenging, hardest years.

but i need to remember how amazing it's been, the laughs, the memories, the adventures and crazy experiences i've had.

and the people that made it amazing.

i think next year is going to be a big year of change in my life, new steps, new adventures and new journeys. life changing things. not sure what or how yet.. but i see big things coming my way.

i'm being reminded that life is too short.. too short to not be happy, to not be doing what i love, to not be surrounded by people i love.