Saturday, October 25, 2008

my friends :)

so im pretty sure friends make life worth living! like ohh my goodness.
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1)one time i was at camp having this hugge mudd fighttt! crazzyness and im like hmm i wonder what it would be like to roll in a bin(like a garge bin)..? like i dunno, so i got in and tried it my freiends roollled me realllyy far.
2)in the kitchen at camp we runn around singing and danccing! and doing no work, it is soo greeatt
3)walking into my room after a long conversation, some cryying and some fighting, i got asked ny questions i just got hugged and told that i was loved no matter what
4)getting off at the wrong bus stop and having to walk like a million miles! hahahha
5)getting on a skytrain to surry like 4 times then finally relaizing that well we were coming back we missed the right one each time! haha soo blondde
6)running across the street at Christmas Banquet, after to crazzy boys.. my daddy always told me to look both ways before i crossed..oopss, no one died dont worry :)
7)dieing my hair black.. then going to camp french braiding it and having everyone laugh cause tehre was a huge blonde patch.
8)throwwing cake every where then going on joshs shorts.. and the greasee stained!
9)driving to timmy hoes in like 2 mintues.. yea thatss right!
10)writing in sharpie across my face... opss.
11)being put into a cardboard person then trying to crackk eggs.. i lostt really really baddly
12)buyying an acutall ring for my nose. and trying to get it in with danielle... ouccch!
13)buyingg hard core earring with juliaa!
14)eatting little ceasers bread for breakfast and dinnner!
15)breaking fingerss! thatss righht! they craccked.
16)findding froggs!
17)prettending we are g! and doing some back streeet boy ness at camp in frontt of everyonee.
18) lettting a boy.. and girl cut my haiirr! do funny, but man i learned my lesson.. for that fact leetting my cut my hair, danielle was supervising i blame her.
19)'skating' on ice in runnerss?
20)finding tampons in the chocolate ile?
21) jumping thee fence to get a picture with the Christmas house
22)peeeing my pants.. more then once!
23) they love you when you feel like no one else does.
24) they steal candy with youu
25)falling in ditches in the darkkk.... it was a huge ditchh! okay it really wasn't
26)liccking windowss.. i tend to do that alott.
27)looots of lock in sleepovers,, oh dearr!
28)puddle jumpinggg, and mud fightss
29) amy teaching me guitar and giving up 5 later cause i got boredd
30)my freinds think my parents are crazzzy...*cough*matthew*cough*
31) going too red robinss and telling the waitress we have 4 mintues... to save the freaking worldd! and having my dad look at us like we are crazzzzy.
32) oil channges?
33)sky trainning to north van! then a freaaaking sea buss no wayy! haha and meeeting a 'random' at metro.. onn a holiday with nothing open
34) dropping the teachers keys in a NNASSTY bucket of juice..reclyecing left overs
35)living at the top of the hill, so haveing to buy McDonalds
36) "tripping off the bus".. haha never happened
37)slippingg when running after friends in front of the guy you likee. great first impression!
38)leaving a pot smelling water bottle in the bread gardenn.. hehe oppss.
39)goingg outt for dinnner and waiting a million years for food! and my friends sticking up for me :)
40)almost losing a hamster.. dropping it on its head.. they would not let me hold it anymore :(
41) dodgeeing from crocket balllss. that were flying towardss us
42) getting in adams car with a hugggeee rip in the crotch of my jeans and he says "if you dont want our friendsip to get really awkard you need to keep this sweater over yourslef.." ahhaha soo funnny!
43)jumping on random canoess and runnning cause people were homee
44) going too timmmys and looking for ppizza at 10 when curfew is 10:30.. to be in bed. then hobos checking us out and looking relaly hard for the boys.. who are no where insiteee. then gettting pizzaa and hurrying back, when a person with there L driving right past the cop shop..
45)going to get pumpking pie at like 11 at nightt.
46)stargazzing
47)mopping.. then walking over it and slipping water.
48)toliet over fulling becasue we poured mop water in to fast.. ops.
49)cleaing boys batthrooms, and singing very loudly so every knew there was a girl but it jsut encouraged them to come in and be tools!
50)messsy mesyy romms! that had rotten hot chocolate
51)powwer rangers!
52) value village hunnttting, for our little jackets ;)
53)peer pressing josh into punching me.. hehe, he didnt do it :)
54)jellybeans anyone?
55) i lovee skinnys and flip flops and our convos about having chubby feet/people who cant wear itt hehe ( i can!)
56)TOYKKO!
57)Mr.Mikes :)

this is ONLY 57.. there are soooo soo many more. but sometimes this reminds me how good i have it and how great life is and my freinds are :)
love you guys!
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"when you laugh as much as you breath you know the meaning of life"

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

what is life;
life has to be more then just like 'living'
there has to be pupose, and i know that purpose comes from God and everything
but in living for God i was to do someting amazing for him.
I want to change the world so people can know about Jesus and how he has changed me life and a lot of people around me.
i want to do something for God that is unreal, unbeliveable and extraordinary!
i don't know what yet tho.
And i love youth, worship is my favorite part of it, i connect with God and feel him on a personal level. But it is very different becasue there are alot of people who were there last year that are no longer there, that i miss like crazzzy! like it is not even understandale how much i miss them! and i feel like God is calling me to change something and make a difference, i dunno. its a really really wired feeling, i dont know what it all means but i will figure it out soon. i hopeee, God will show me soon :)


i thought some pictures were in order.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

twloha

"This night made me feel like maybe i can just be myself and be honest in that setting, that maybe i was never meant to look or sound like everyone else... and finally, i think it reminded that i truly enjoy telling stories and seeing people find something in the words."

"Perhaps more than anything, the talk is about the idea that we all live with questions, we can all relate to pain, we all get stuck... and we aren't meant to live alone under the weight (and silence) of our questions. It seems we're meant to share our questions, to invite other people into the broken parts of our life, and to learn to meet our friends in the difficult places in their lives as well."

HOPE

Monday, September 22, 2008

i really do need you.


so i really should not be blogging right now, i should be doing yesterdays socials or sleeping. but becasue i have friends who are suffering, who just 'dont know anymore' im gonna blog, becasue this has been on my heart all day!


YOU ARE LOVED. YOU ARE WORTH THE WORLD, TO MORE THEN JUST ONE PERSON. YOU HAVE POWER. YOU HAVE STRENGTH. this world offers more to you then you ever know, but you need to open your eyes. you need to look for it. nothing comes easy, it comes so hard, but it is soo worth it. highschool sucks! it is breaking so many of my friends, i cant let it break me! NEVER! lets stand together and make it a place of praise and prayer a place to love and never give up on people.

"Don't ever think that nobody cares or that nobodyloves you because I can guarantee that there is at least one person that thinks about you every night."

Right now, i really need you to see, that people care. people love you. and if it feels like no one loves you they do! please dont break.

brokenness: a friend who told me to not be exicted for my future cause it is a let down. a friend who can only see what the world has to offer her. a friend who is searching for something that high shcool cant give him and once hes gone he will see it, and see how amaazing life is. a friend who is scraed to see what God has to face him with; and he has a frined who he says he gives it a year before he kills himself. a friend who is having the real world hit her like a brick! a friend who jsut likes a boy, and its killing to know he has moved on, and in her silence she feels pain not joy.


i need you guys to hold on, hold on tighter then ever. we are almost throguh, well get through this togehter.


"What a wonderful thought it is that some of the Best days of our lives haven't happened yet." woahh! this is an amazing thought! to know that my best day so far is going to be one of many, maybee my days to come will blow that one out of the water!

i aint given up just yet, i got to much to lose

i love all of you, and i will never give up on any one, cause i need you all.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Music is a safe place and Pedro is her favorite.

i don't think i wanna admit this one..
at least not yet
this time is different,
the proof is right before my eyes.
at least i think it is.
maybe the proof was always there,
but i just pretended it wasn't.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

soo; i have not had time to blog in soo long!
but now i have time too.
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so i have been at camp for my summer, and this past week, like 48 hours at one point, God has done some greatt greaat things in my life. he has taught me some great lessons. it is truly mind blowing.
Last summer week 7 on wedseday i started to like a boy; well we kinda liked each other.
And it has taken one year, exactly for these feelings to kinda leave, and the hurt to be gone, and for me not to be upset about it anymore.
I have been waiting a year to talk to him, and finally we talked, it was an intense converstation, and a lot was said. but all that was said i needed to get off my chest, i was completley honest. maybe to honest. but i can't take it back, im learning i cant regret anything i say to anyone anymore, and he listened to it all, and it was amazing. i walked away upset, but woke up the next morning, and my heart said "it is done" my heart was done. It was such a mind blowing thing, and the fact that it was in God's time, God knew it was meant to take one year.
Now that i have got all that off my heart, im able to look at him for who he really is now, and not have those hurt feeelings behind it. I wish i could take back everytime i called him a jerk or a player; because i know he did not mean to hurt me, it was not on purpose. and if i truly thought he was those things i would have never liked him. One day i really hope i can talk to him again, and tell him i take back all those things i said and that i think he is an amaizng guy, with amazing talent, and has the potential to make huge differeneces. But right now is not the time for that becausei dont know if he will want to listen to what im really saying, but we have 3 more weeks of summer, and i think he will be around for a while. so one day, in God's time it will happen :)
And now we dont really talk, but i could not fake our freindship anymore, it was the last thing i wanted. so now we both are on the same page; mostly i think, so when we are meant to talk and build our friendship back it will happen. in God's plan. and im looking forward to what God has in store for the rest of my summer.
So having that converstation was a huge huge thing this week, that i have been waiting for a year to happen, but i relaize that it happened when God knew i was ready for it.
I was able albe to repair a friendship with an amazing girl, which im so happy about, becuase i think i would have missed out on an amazing thing, with an amazing person.
There was also another person that told me he has gained so much respect for me this week, becuase of the way im handleing things, he said im being very mature and responsilbe, and talking to him is so good, because i know he understands were i was coming from and what im trying to do to fix wahtever problems there are.
Right now im feeeling so blessed. Thank you God for your forgiveness.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Love you Lord.

i'm going to be completley honest.. i didnt really want to say it out loud..
or write it truthfully, but i have to.

This summer is going to be amazing, maybe even the best one yet.
Being able to serve God in so many ways with all my heart, which is the best feeling ever.

but im nervous to see you.. you make me feel something i never have before.
and even if i tell myself im over you, when i see you all those feelings come rushing back to me.
and part of me wants to wish something will happen, but deep down i know it wont..
so why am i getting my hopes up..yet again.


but i hope im proven wrong.
i hope God will show me this summer that this is really not the guy for me,
and i will be completley over him.
and you know what, God is good.
so where my feelings should be that is were they will be.

Lord; i know my focus will never stray,
but let this summer be entirley about serving you and coming to know you better.
learning new things and meeting new childern of God
i thank you for this amazing oppurtiuny,
and this amazing summer to come!
Amen