Why are people, mostly girls. so vunerable, why do we put our heart on our sleeves?
what good do we think thats good do us?
do we think it will make it easier on us, no it makes it easier on the other person becuase they see your heart, and they can take it in the blink of an eye..
but its like what happens if your heart is still on your sleeve but all you want is for it to not be there... how do you do that?
everytime you get hurt you say, oh ill never fall that fast ever again!
but look what happened this time, you fell even faster, but you just deniened it for so long, but who were you kidding everyone saw that you fell...
what happens when you want to move on and now fall, be unpredicatalbe. do the unexpected..
is this possible to change how fast you fall..
maybe it doesnt matter how fast you fall, because i belive you will know when its the right guy.
and even if you feel like its the right guy, and he leaves let him walk away, and if he is the "one" your paths will cross again dont you worry!
there is someone out there for everyone...
haha so okay, this started as a question of why people fall so fast, when its bad for them and they know it, but i think at the end i may have answered it for myself.. its kinda like asking for advice, casue you know what the answer is but you want to hear someone else say it.. woah;
okay, so this is my first blog;
and it would be sweet to tell you about my slef, but im gonna do that through blogging instead, cause i really need to vent right now!
but i like this boy; and its a really long complicated story with him right now.
we liked eachother in the summer, and then things just started to fall apart, but i made it seem like we still had a relationship cause it hurt less. but now things are hurting me way to much, so i told him how i felt in a letter and i have no idea how he feels or what he thinks, and i dont know how long its gonna take for me to get over him, but right now all i want is fricken closure!
it is soo frustartting, i hate this!
like i go and read all these quotes on-line, and stuff buts they are all telling me how i feel but all different ways, and i just dont know what to do anymore!
part of me feels like i cant do anything anymore, he wants me in his life, he'll find a way to put me there. but then another part tells me to never speak to him again ever! but its like i cant do that, i want him in my life, i want to be his friend. and then my friends tell me his the idiot for letting go, but i feel like im the idiot for holding on from the begging.
its all ridiclous! i just dont know where things went wrong! and i dont want to bad mouth him, cause i know hes a good guy, im just hurt so i feel like hes not a good guy. but he meant alot to me, and the only thing i think can take away my hurt is God...
im sure i will have different thoughts to blog, and vent about later! don't you worry!
Peace Out Girl Scout!
