Urggh!

okay, so this is my first blog;
and it would be sweet to tell you about my slef, but im gonna do that through blogging instead, cause i really need to vent right now!

but i like this boy; and its a really long complicated story with him right now.
we liked eachother in the summer, and then things just started to fall apart, but i made it seem like we still had a relationship cause it hurt less. but now things are hurting me way to much, so i told him how i felt in a letter and i have no idea how he feels or what he thinks, and i dont know how long its gonna take for me to get over him, but right now all i want is fricken closure!
it is soo frustartting, i hate this!
like i go and read all these quotes on-line, and stuff buts they are all telling me how i feel but all different ways, and i just dont know what to do anymore!
part of me feels like i cant do anything anymore, he wants me in his life, he'll find a way to put me there. but then another part tells me to never speak to him again ever! but its like i cant do that, i want him in my life, i want to be his friend. and then my friends tell me his the idiot for letting go, but i feel like im the idiot for holding on from the begging.
its all ridiclous! i just dont know where things went wrong! and i dont want to bad mouth him, cause i know hes a good guy, im just hurt so i feel like hes not a good guy. but he meant alot to me, and the only thing i think can take away my hurt is God...
im sure i will have different thoughts to blog, and vent about later! don't you worry!
Peace Out Girl Scout!