I'm soo sooo sick of sitting around wasting time doing nothing! I hate just sitting around and watching TV. it sucks so much! I hate just sitting around, wasting days and time of my life that I can never get back! I HATE IT SO MUCH! it makes me so angrryy! urghh. and sometimes my parents are so easy going and they let me go out and just live! but sometimes they say 'no'!!! and i dont understanddd why!! they say no when i need to go the most. when i need to go out and worship and see people and pray, i cant! like tonight. i neeeded to go to yc before i start shcool again! and i was not allowed. so chokeed! :( but maybe there was a reason i was not going... maybe something was gonna happen if i went.. i dunno. but i hate sitting around not doing anything.i wanna graduate and go to cali or new zeland, and move on! live life, love my friends will all my heart and never waste another day again. and never throw away something ill never get back!
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URGGGGHH! i hate stressing this! and i was so ready to go back tommmorw, not stressing just breathing and seeing how it all plays out. but now i got nothing to really go off of.. and nothing to just take that i can breathe with.
Lord please help me. just take me through this.
I can handle this. i know i can handle this. i can i can i can.
i love being there for other people and i love being there to listen to other people and hear about their problems and what is going on in their lives and let me pray and care for them. i love it so much! God has called me to do it. he has called me to love people will all my heart. love them more than they will ever be able to see! but sometimes it breaks me down and i just wish people would tell me randomly, when they meant it not cause i guilted them into it! because they feel they need too! that they love me and care about me and that i matter! and i have made a difference in there life. sometimes a simple reminder is all thats needed! sometimes.. i just wanna hear im loved and not cause i said it first or because im upset.. or because im having a bad day. i wanna hear it cause people mean it.
i love hearing that im loved. and i know im loved.. but sometimes actions speak louder than words.. i just wanna hear it sometimes. but no matter what, i will never stop loving my friends. never.
Life keeps going. Its a new day; lets not forget that.
im loved, i know, but reminders dont hurt.
1 comment:
it really troubles me that you feel as if you can't worship or pray if you're not at yc.
that's what i've been talking about so long, and most people don't understand, but you can't chalk Jesus down to an event. you can't count on a conference or sermon or song or worship concert to do anything in your relationship with Him. to re-charge you. it can be those things, but home can re-charge you. sitting on your bed reading your bible and praying can do just as good of a job. the pretty social exterior just isn't there. but that's why me, and Tessa, and everyone hate youth now. there's no interior for us.
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