this is my aim

let's laugh way to loud.
talk way to much.
dance like we just don't care.
sing like it's our last time.
love like we may never get to again.
hug way too tight and way too long.
pray until we run out of words.
praise like its heaven on earth.
i wanna do more than just exist,
i wanna live.

20 minutes to say i love you.

camp is coming to an end.
already. this is the last full day of summer camp in 2010.
and i don't know where God will lead me next year.
but i know ill be serving Him with all i got.

there's so much going through my head right now.
19 days. 19 days. 19 days.
wow. this blows my mind.
the dream that we once joked about had become our reality.
in 19 days i will be leaving on a plane with one of my best friends,
to go on the biggest, most life changing experience of our lives yet.
im so excited to see where this journey takes us.
where we end up, what we learn, who we meet.
how our lives will be changed.

but at the same time im a little nervous.
we're leaving everything we know behind.. yet in a sense this is kinda of exhilarating.
its like taking a step of faith into the unknown.
we'll laugh. we'll cry. we'll fall. and we'll help eachother back up.
i know im gonna miss people, lots of people and things from home.
but im gonna live in the moment. no regrets.
im gonna meet people and tell people about Jesus.
and He'll give me strength and guide me; this i know.

so above all.
i'm willing and ready.
and super stoked.

us beavers are coming! you better watch our kiwis.

i'm about to embark on an adventure that i know is going to blow my mind.
God is going to doo soo many great things, and i know that if i follow him and trust on His will and guidance; we willl be good!
i can't even begin to fathom the things we will do, the places we will go, the people we will meet.
i wanna laugh to loud, serve God with all i got, and live these moments like there my last.
im so excited and so ready to see what the next few months bring!

Adventurees here we come!

and honestly there is no one id rather be taking this learning adventure of a lifetime with.
im blessed that im going to have you by my side every step of the way.
lets see what the world can throw at us, we can make tuna sandwhiches; we can handle anything!

do the roar. i love you daddy.

I have a friend named Jesus.

He saves lives.

He is stronger, He is stronger.

joy comes in the morning.

i put my trust in You, and You alone.

Jesus we're living for your name.
We'll never be ashamed of you.

you look kinda cute.

do you ever feel like something your life is a from a movie? i do. and you know what, im alright with it. cause theres some super good movies out there. last night, my best freind was upset. this made me upset! and so you know what i do? i drive up and down the streeet looking for her. than go to her house call her and tell her to come outside! this is nuts, i wasn't even near her house. but do you see the crazy things love will make you do. and we talk, than her mom (i love moms) comes outside and tells us im not allowed to leave till we talk this out. but that we must come inside now! and just like the good friends we are, we talked about it. and we were laughing at the end.

but honestly. ive always wanted a best friend, someone i can tell all my secrets too, laugh with and drive to there house in the middle of the night. and God has given me this and sooo much more. and you know even if im losing some of my other strong friendships, God is making this one sooo much stronger. we have gone through so much, and i wouldnt trade that for the world. and this was almost a test, could we get through something so simple? and we did, all we needed to do was talk. God gives these tests to make us stronger, our friendship strong. so thanks God. i really love her. and i cant wait to see the bigger things He has in store for the both of us.

the world is our playground. (seriously)
kjip + ber

dude man.
ps. id still really like to go to wal-mart soon..?

steady and unchanging.

your love is enough.

more than enough.

this is your love story. i promise.

girl meets boy.
boys likes girl.
girl is scared to fall.
shes scared he'll just hurt her.
shes been hurt just far to many times.
but this boy, he works.
he works hard to get into her heart.
he knows this aint no game.
he knows she cant get hurt anymore.
he promises he'll never hurt her.
this isn't enough.
she says show me. love me. hold me.
and he does.
he gives her surprises.
he's there even when she screws up.
he holds her so tight she can barley breath.
he breaks down those walls shes been focused to build.
they were oh, so high.
but he made his way in.
this time, she believed it.
believed he wouldn't hurt her.
boy and girl live happily every after.
like i said, boy loves girl.

im giving you all.

You told me to look for you and i will find, so im here searching like its my first time. make this cold heart start to move, help me rediscover you. Lord i wanna be Yours. i wanna know the passion. i wanna know You.

stop talking gibberish, or just stop talking.

Lord;
i can't help but be happy.
i can't help but dance.
i can't help but laugh.

you've made this possible and

now its all i want to do.
praise you and be joyful,
no matter the place,
no matter the circumstances.

its all just gibberish.

sometimes..
sometimes i dont understand.
okay a lot i of the time i dont understand.
why you act the way you do.
why your rude the way you are.
why you laugh the way you do.
why you talk the way you do.
why you treat me the way you do.
sometimes..
sometimes i just miss my friend(s).
i have this best friend and she is soo flipping amazing.
like honestly words can describe,
i wake up and think of how blessed im that God put her in my life.
i couldn't do any of this with out her, by my side.
but there used to be 6 of us.. like a 6 pack.
and i know things change for the best Lord.
i know, and i trust your plan.
and shes gone cause she doesn't know how to give and take.
i miss him, hes just so busy, i miss our one time car rides.
and i miss him too, the way things used to be.. but so much has change in his world.
we've been put on the back burner.
and maybe this is God saying hey, your leaving on amazing adventures soon.
so... yep, new people, new world, new place, new adventures.
and im ready. im sick of this little town.
lets just get away for a while.
lets pack up and move to calif... wait... new zealand.
lets, yes lets.

theres just so much change coming around me all at once.
i know i can handle it. i got you Lord.
in my life be lifted high.
in our world be lifted high.
in our love be lifted high.
be lifted higher Lord.
higher, higher.
higher.

in my life, be lifted high.

pray, pray, pray.
this is what im going to do today.

i just got God smacked.

"what do you worry about? school? money?
what your gonna do in the summer? relationships?"

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.
Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.
Then you will experience God’s peace,
which exceeds anything we can understand.
His peace will guard your hearts and minds
as you live in Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:6-7

thank you for speaking to me God.
for loving me.
reminding me of your amazing promise.
i will pray, pray, pray.

i will not be weary. i will not be faint.

hold me. hold me, i know you'll never let go.

i need you so much closer. closer to me. Lord, lead me.
i know your here, i know, you always are. i trust in
that with all ive got. but i need you to guide me.
show me. lead me. guide me. show me. lead me.
ill follow, i promise. i just need to know its from you God,
i need to know where you want me, not where money
wants me, not where my body wants me, not where
my mind wants me. where do you want me? please
make this clear. show me, lead me. ill go. ill go. im
here, ready to run like never before Lord. ill jump,
not seeing the ground, not seeing my feet.. i dont
need to see these things when i know youll catch me,
you hold me when im falling. im like a lost sheep,
who needs her Shepard: amazing, gracious, loving
Shepard to come lead her back to Him and His will.

Where do i go from here?
im follwing you, and your will.
thats all i know.
and thats enough, more than enough.

we stick together like peanut butter and jelly.

this is super legit. thought i should share.

i'm not faking, i swear.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned,
it’s to always wear a smile on your face.
Some may think that it’s fake,
but I think that smiling is a God’s best gift for us.
Even when your heart is breaking,
you should smile. And some may think
that it's bad to hide your feelings,
but I think that pain should only be
felt for a short amount of time.
Happiness should out number it
every day, every way.

you make all things work together for our good.

remember this my dear friend.

there's 365 days, not just 1.

i don't like Valentines Day..
what does it even mean? what does it stand for?
you know how I feel about Valentines day?
it just points out to people how lonely and unloved they feel.
what if they have no one special to spend today with? what if their alone? or the one they love loves someone else? what if their a million miles away? what if..
i want someone to love me, 365 days a year; not just on one day because someone told them to them me, because culture tells them to love on this one day of this year.
what about the other 364 days of the year?

i love you. today, tomorrow and all 365 days.
this i can promise, i don't need a day to make me show you my love for you. i can do that all by myself.
I love because He first loved me.. not because society tells me too.

so if you're gonna love.. do it everyday. every minute. because nobody wants you to fake it, nobody just wants to be loved for one day.
i wanna be loved forever, everyday. even when im hard to love.. oh and believe me; ill have moments when im hard to love.
but love me for me, because you want too. everyday, yes all 365.

so there, this is my point.
ill love you.. everyday. i promise.

lets all just love a little.

everybody has the power to do something,

to be a contributing force,
and I would rather people look back on
my life and say, "she made the world a better place."
We can all do things like that,
and I believe that when opportunities arise
for you to do good, you should do good.

lets tell the truth.

too legit too quit.

this i can promise.

i laugh more than i breath.

I have always been a laugher,
disturbing people who are not laughers.
upsetting whole audiences at theaters..
I laugh, that's all. I love to laugh.
Laughter to me is being alive.
I have had rotten times,
and I have laughed through them.
Even in the very worst of times I have laughed.

bigger, bigger, bigger.

you know what is hitting me;
there are things so much bigger than myself,
and i know this.. sometimes i forget though.
but how i do in highschool, the friends that just don't care enough,
the boys that pretended to care, the drama that follows...
none of this matters, like honestly, i doesn't.
and i need to remember this, this brings me hope.
knowing that there is something bigger than me..
bigger than what im doing now,
ive got God and i know for a fact that He is much bigger.
so what He is going to offer me, is so much bigger,
so much better, so exciting!
no matter what happens now..
im gonna live life like there's no tomorrow, no regrets.
because its not worth it..
He's got a plan, and i need to trust this, no doubt.
i promise.

i love my friends.

don't judge us;
because me and my friends,,
yah we're loud! yah, we're crazy.
we crazy, we sing like its summer in the wintertime, we blast our music, go see telus tuesday movies, go for coffee, drive in cars, mess with cats, laugh louder than you'll ever be able to scream.
i love them, more than you'll ever know. but i don't care.
because i love them, and i never want them to forget this.
we go on adventures, we party like rockstars.
you can be jealous; its okay.
because you should be jealous.

i can't wait to see where we go this year!

always smile.

"I hold you like I do, tightly because I know that one day, I'll die.

And I am determined to do it with a smile on my face."

your love is steady and unchanging,

love never fails.

i'm glad your my friend.

"Perhaps, God would have you to become acquainted with many people in the course
of your life so that when you meet the right ones, you can appreciate and be grateful for them. The one who takes your hand and touches your heart is a true friend. Don't cry because it's over now, smile because it happened."

i love these people.

thanks for being there for me this year.

kylie isaacson: i know how to spell your last name! arent you like super proud of me! :) but this year.. wow we have always been there for eachother. im thankful for the times that you have made me laugh, and listened to me vent and were my shoulder to cry on! its really means alot! you make me laugh, like this one time when we dropped our biggest kid off at the pool with kyle. its good times reallly, we like to get london fogs and have sleepovers and go to church. we check out cute guys, with long hair and v-necks; just ask us about it. we get vampire babies sometimes, and they hurt! if only you knew the pain they caused us. your beautiful and amzazing! i wouldn't change who you are for the world! God had you a beautiful young woman of God! God has put you in my life and others lives as a blessing!

kyle newman: man! this is an amazing kid! he's going far! man God has big things planned for him, he's almost done school and gonna get a job looving kids. this is what God wants him to do, dunno where! but somewhere! and in that place God is gonna blow his mind. He's such a goood kid! we can always talk, hes honest with you and loves you. wont judge you, but will give you the best advice possible! amazing kid right him, and im really happy to call him my friend.
curtis roberts: this is a man of God! a man that loves God with all his heart, all his soul and all his mind! he is a servant! and he will be till the day he dies! he has taught me so much this year; i have just known him this year.. and already he has taught me so so much! he has encouraged me to read my bible more, and pray with others and for others. he has such a huge heart and is so giving and gentle... he has had his hard times.. his ups and downs, highschool was hard.. but through it God has made him the amazing man he is today! and God is showing him so much, that i find he teaches others! he doesnt take crap, but he loves his guitar! and i love that he can play it and make music, make songs about God and the things he loves. im so blessed and so happy that he is apart of my life.. we've had some hard times, but overall m so thankful that he's in my life!
danielle nori: this girl! rocks my freaking socks off! shes so cuteee! we have had amazing times at camp together, learning and growing. and seeing who God is together. she has been there for me the last few! has been there to listen, to love me, to be a shoulder to cry on, and just to make me laugh! man can we laugh together! we can have amazing adventures and fun times.. where all we do is laugh! we have been there through camp.. through hard times and times when we felt so helpless. this girl has a beautiful heart and a beautiful mind. im super blessed to call her my friend, and be able to walk beside her and hold her hand.
danielle Morneau: sweetest girl ever! she has her challenges. but this year, its gonnna be her year! i know it! i know it! God has huge things planned for her! and he is gonna blow her mind! he is gonna show her so much this year, and teach her so much! and in her school, she is gonna show people the love of Christ! and they are gonna see her love and know she is a Christian by her love! i cant wait to be a part of her growth! and see what God is doing and see God blow her mind. i love this girl so much! and i know God is gonna do huge things in her life this year!
josh morneau: this guy has beeen away for a year; but man! he has come back with such a love for God and he has learned so much! he has grown so much and has come to know the Lord even more! i cant wait to learn from him and to get to hang out with him again! his love for God is so evident! and so passionate! its amazing to see! and an amazing breathe of fresh air to have him back home and showing us everything! good to have you home!

This is gonna be a good year! With amazing friends(not just the ones on this list(this is just a few), but so many others too!) and amazing adventures to come! I cant wait. i love you all. and i love the Lord.

this is gonna be a good year.
better believe it!

rambeling about this past year and the year to come.

2010.. woah. thats crazy, its crazy to write that; to think that that is what ill be writing on my paper at school on Monday.. to think that in 6 months ill be 18.. and never have to be in highschool again. wow. blows my mind. im here, 2010 is here. the year that felt like it would never come fast enough.
Future: I'm excited. Scared. Stoked. Willing. Nervous. Highschools almost done! im so excited, but what about grad? do i go? do i bring a date? will i be let down if i dont go? honestly, i think i will. but i think ill be let down if i go. lose-lose situation... if i make it that! i think im going, and i think im bringing a date. and its gonna be what i make it, this is what i think. so im gonna make it a winnner! but overall.. grad is here. wow.
Summer, what to do? go to camp? work? dunno, how God's gonna provide and show me where to go.
Post Secondary!! ekk! i may be off in Calgary, cold! the last thing i wanted! man, the girl whos dream was to go to NZ and Cali. but im applying for a few schools, and i know that God's got it! He's got it figured out, now i just need to trust in him and his plan for my future. and im excited to go away and learn! learn about God, learn how to love his children. and you know what they call bible college; marriage college ;) who knows whats gonna happen!
i have alot of hopes and dreams for my future. and im not letting go of any of them for anything! Dream big, God is bigger!
all i know is that im willing for my future. and im putting my nervous behind me! and being excited for it all!
Past: this year! woah, crazy. it feels like the longest year ever, but honestly went by so soo fast!
it has been full of adventure! risks! learning.. sometimes from other people and sometimes having to take of leap of faith on my own.. and sometimes falling on my face.. but getting back up! because i know theirs more to live for.
I had lows moments this year.. getting hurt in relationships and friendships. but i wouldn't take it back, God has taught me and showed me so much through these people and through these challenges! Highschools been hard... but God is slowly getting me to show my faith through situations and opportunities.
And there have been amazing moments! like friends stepping up and loving me and making me laugh when i needed them. summer camp. MSY and seeing those girls love God and grow in there faith, seeing them come to us and need us; and that we can teach them. HSY.. getting to step up and take a leadership role. getting to go to conferences and learning. going to Victoria. car rides with my best friends.. One time? Click Click. . sleeepovers and Youth Church.. Ethos? what! being silly and knowing im still loved. there are too many memories! this is why i have a camera though ;)

God has blowed my mind this year!
so much, and if he did amazing things through me this year!
i cant even imagine whats gonna do this year!
but im willing and so excited to see where he takes me.