rambeling about this past year and the year to come.

2010.. woah. thats crazy, its crazy to write that; to think that that is what ill be writing on my paper at school on Monday.. to think that in 6 months ill be 18.. and never have to be in highschool again. wow. blows my mind. im here, 2010 is here. the year that felt like it would never come fast enough.
Future: I'm excited. Scared. Stoked. Willing. Nervous. Highschools almost done! im so excited, but what about grad? do i go? do i bring a date? will i be let down if i dont go? honestly, i think i will. but i think ill be let down if i go. lose-lose situation... if i make it that! i think im going, and i think im bringing a date. and its gonna be what i make it, this is what i think. so im gonna make it a winnner! but overall.. grad is here. wow.
Summer, what to do? go to camp? work? dunno, how God's gonna provide and show me where to go.
Post Secondary!! ekk! i may be off in Calgary, cold! the last thing i wanted! man, the girl whos dream was to go to NZ and Cali. but im applying for a few schools, and i know that God's got it! He's got it figured out, now i just need to trust in him and his plan for my future. and im excited to go away and learn! learn about God, learn how to love his children. and you know what they call bible college; marriage college ;) who knows whats gonna happen!
i have alot of hopes and dreams for my future. and im not letting go of any of them for anything! Dream big, God is bigger!
all i know is that im willing for my future. and im putting my nervous behind me! and being excited for it all!
Past: this year! woah, crazy. it feels like the longest year ever, but honestly went by so soo fast!
it has been full of adventure! risks! learning.. sometimes from other people and sometimes having to take of leap of faith on my own.. and sometimes falling on my face.. but getting back up! because i know theirs more to live for.
I had lows moments this year.. getting hurt in relationships and friendships. but i wouldn't take it back, God has taught me and showed me so much through these people and through these challenges! Highschools been hard... but God is slowly getting me to show my faith through situations and opportunities.
And there have been amazing moments! like friends stepping up and loving me and making me laugh when i needed them. summer camp. MSY and seeing those girls love God and grow in there faith, seeing them come to us and need us; and that we can teach them. HSY.. getting to step up and take a leadership role. getting to go to conferences and learning. going to Victoria. car rides with my best friends.. One time? Click Click. . sleeepovers and Youth Church.. Ethos? what! being silly and knowing im still loved. there are too many memories! this is why i have a camera though ;)

God has blowed my mind this year!
so much, and if he did amazing things through me this year!
i cant even imagine whats gonna do this year!
but im willing and so excited to see where he takes me.