stop hating/start loving

Love is something better. I have been challenged, remind that love is that simple answer to so many of our hardest questions. I might be simple but more and more; I believe God works in love, speaks in love and is revealed in our love.

Sometimes I look at our world so full of hate. All these girls trying to be someone else and not being happy with who they are. All these guys trying to be some super jock that there just not. We have all become something we are not, and inside we envy others and hate oursleves. And all I can wonder is how is this possible when this world was created by God who is love. The peicies dont always fit together, and I think it might be because no body is happy with who they are, nobody can love themselves so how can they love others. We cant just trust that God loves us, and that him love is enough. And that God would never lead us a stray, he will show us our night in shinning armour..one day when the time is right, he will show you everything we need. So lets stop hating ourselves so we can stop hating others.

Hate is not going to be stopped with more hate it is going to be stopped with love!

( L )

I want to change the world;
even if its only one persons world, its still the world to someone.
I belivie I can do that, I belivie I can make a difference,
and once I heard that the people who are crazy enough to believe they can, are the ones that do.
There will always be people who will say 'you can't', your not strong enough, your just one person you cant make a difference, but sometimes all it takes is that one person.
My name is your name, and one day I'll make a difference, we'll make a difference.
Just Believe.

:)

I'm feeling better!
Don't Fret!

:)

Day Of Love, Not So Lovely..

I'm; struggling..
and yes its love day, almost over thanks gooodnneess
because i havent really been feeling the love.
and i hope all my difficutlies work out because they
are really kinda stupid things.. but they seem to really upset me
hmm...help..:S
one moment im amazing! the next im not..
i think i know why, but the reasons are ridicolous!
so yeeppp!
i hope my next blog is super happy, because im a happy person! :)
im looking forward to it, but for now i got to be content with my distraughtnesss
and hopefully it gets worked out with a few words, and conffessions and feelings soon!

i just keep setting my self up to be hurt by you..

even though you dont relaize it any longer, actually im not sure if you ever did, but some how you have this hold on me.. i try to communicate with you which is hard, because i ask how your doing you never ask me how im.. that makes me think do you care. did you ever really care, and that hurts becasue i know thats not true, i know what we had at one point was really..or was that jsut my hopes going higher and higher..
but when you dont ask how im doing, answer a simple question, i feel hurt and break on the inside.. thats your invisble hold.. no one knows how much it hurt, my friends are sick of me venting to them about how much you hurt me.. most of the time i set my self of for that hurt.. still, even after ive fallen so many times.
that one little heart on my blue jeans, says so much that no one will ever understand but me, everytime i see it, i get upset becasue it reminds me of how broken im by you, and how much i miss you, our converstaions, how you held me, our words that were never said but we knew they where there
i look at what im writing, and i feel like an idiot! on so many leevels, casue you've moved on you have a new girlfriend, but everytime i try to move on all i can do it think about you...

as we stood there making the promise we would be friends forever, and our friendship wouldnt end just summer ended, i knew it was a promise that you couldnt keep, all i did was hope that i was wrong..

quotes.. with how im feeling

People get stuck in moments. Hearts break and don't fix easy. Love is nothing easy. It is not cheap. It is the greatest thing that happens on this planet, and so it comes priced as gold. One of my best friends used to sing the words "love is war". There is the fight for holding on. And the fight for letting go. The hardest thing i have ever experienced is the learning which and when. But i still say it's worth it, that love is real and possible. There are things worth fighting for, and love is at the top of the list...

But we are still here, you and me... And so the question is what to do with that. What to do with the news of the day, and this air that still remains in our lungs. i would say these things: You are not alone. Your life matters. Your story is important. You are alive tonight for a reason. You were created to love and to be loved. You were not meant to be alone. You are not alone. You were meant to do life with other people. You need people who know you. You need to know people. Your voice matters.

http://www.twloha.com/

I believe in God just as much as he does. I mean, not that it's a contest, but we have very different ideas.I don't think you seek out God directly, or else he would just come down and visit us once in awhile. I think he wants us to seek him out through other people, through being in love with the world. He's in the ocean, he's in a bagful of snacks, and the way you end up laughing about them. He's in the laughing. Does that make sense?

i wanted to remember us like we were that summer. i didn't want to ever forget that.-the notebook

Sometimes I wonder if this is all just karma for how i hurt you.

The "I'm Sorrys" dont change a thing

Hearing "Your a good person, theres someone else out there" doesnt change a thing either

your feeelings feel like they have been thrown away and none of it ever meant a thing..

(writen by me)

secret 24; even though we weren't in love, i miss that boy more than anyone will ever understand

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

One day, you will wake up. You will be able to get dressed, eat breakfast, brush your teeth, take a shower, go to school, eat lunch, go to class, and come home. And you'll be able to do all of that without thinking about him.

And it's just like me to overanalyze your every word.thinking that maybe for a second, it meant something.

uh oh..

okay, well sometimes i make mistakes, we all do.
but yesterday i may have made a big mistakee!
so now my goal is to make money, i guess by getttin a job :
to pay back a friend, because i dont want something that happened to wreck our friendship
and i sure hope it doesn't because i value our friendship, and we were startin to become closer, and i hope this stupid like incidecnt doesnt wreck it all...

My feelings i don't think i can really handle right now, and i know that Mr.Right is out there
but im "searching" in a way for him right now, and so maybe i know him, but if im looking for him it will pressure it, so even if i already know the guy, i need to wait, cause it will work out, it takes time, God please help me to "stop searching" and stop blaming myself and feeling like an idiot for what happened with the guy i recently like\maybe still do like... hope not

Im ready for a new semester, to start my grades again! i hope i get all A's but PE hahaha :)
new start! which is exicting!

so theres ups and downs.. but all in all it could be worse