i love my friends :)

i was going through so not so good stuff, that God is totaly helping me through but i needed a little bit of encouragment; and i found it. Thank You
"i know things seem to be crumbling all around you, but you know what, Maybe God is calling you to preach to these people. Preach to the boy who broke your heart. Preach to the girls who have turned the other way. You are the one who can make change. "

future..

well im so stoked for my future!
ready to be out of highschool! :)
its so over rated and there are so many people, that all they are gonna have is highschool, and i think thats horrible. Highschool is such a small part of your life, but ya its gonna make ya or break ya. Dont let it break ya, and be yourslef, it is so much better that way! No i didnt say easier, i said better.

And I'm not scared for my future nessacary, cause I know its all gonna work out in Gods plan.
Im more scared our choices really.
Like maybe one choices: Gratude a semester early then go to a bible college on the other side of the world! :) then come back and go to universtity or college.
or : dont gratuade early and go to bible college on the other side of the work when I'm done highschool
and how long at the bible college? 6 months is my thought.
Is it even a good idea to be looking at gratuating early? gets me out of highschool faster??

so many choices! butt really even withh all these big questions; im so exicted to see where my future takes me. What God has in storee! :)
Youth Pastor?? :)(my thoughts of the moment at least)

stop hating/start loving

Love is something better. I have been challenged, remind that love is that simple answer to so many of our hardest questions. I might be simple but more and more; I believe God works in love, speaks in love and is revealed in our love.

Sometimes I look at our world so full of hate. All these girls trying to be someone else and not being happy with who they are. All these guys trying to be some super jock that there just not. We have all become something we are not, and inside we envy others and hate oursleves. And all I can wonder is how is this possible when this world was created by God who is love. The peicies dont always fit together, and I think it might be because no body is happy with who they are, nobody can love themselves so how can they love others. We cant just trust that God loves us, and that him love is enough. And that God would never lead us a stray, he will show us our night in shinning armour..one day when the time is right, he will show you everything we need. So lets stop hating ourselves so we can stop hating others.

Hate is not going to be stopped with more hate it is going to be stopped with love!

( L )

I want to change the world;
even if its only one persons world, its still the world to someone.
I belivie I can do that, I belivie I can make a difference,
and once I heard that the people who are crazy enough to believe they can, are the ones that do.
There will always be people who will say 'you can't', your not strong enough, your just one person you cant make a difference, but sometimes all it takes is that one person.
My name is your name, and one day I'll make a difference, we'll make a difference.
Just Believe.

:)

I'm feeling better!
Don't Fret!

:)

Day Of Love, Not So Lovely..

I'm; struggling..
and yes its love day, almost over thanks gooodnneess
because i havent really been feeling the love.
and i hope all my difficutlies work out because they
are really kinda stupid things.. but they seem to really upset me
hmm...help..:S
one moment im amazing! the next im not..
i think i know why, but the reasons are ridicolous!
so yeeppp!
i hope my next blog is super happy, because im a happy person! :)
im looking forward to it, but for now i got to be content with my distraughtnesss
and hopefully it gets worked out with a few words, and conffessions and feelings soon!

i just keep setting my self up to be hurt by you..

even though you dont relaize it any longer, actually im not sure if you ever did, but some how you have this hold on me.. i try to communicate with you which is hard, because i ask how your doing you never ask me how im.. that makes me think do you care. did you ever really care, and that hurts becasue i know thats not true, i know what we had at one point was really..or was that jsut my hopes going higher and higher..
but when you dont ask how im doing, answer a simple question, i feel hurt and break on the inside.. thats your invisble hold.. no one knows how much it hurt, my friends are sick of me venting to them about how much you hurt me.. most of the time i set my self of for that hurt.. still, even after ive fallen so many times.
that one little heart on my blue jeans, says so much that no one will ever understand but me, everytime i see it, i get upset becasue it reminds me of how broken im by you, and how much i miss you, our converstaions, how you held me, our words that were never said but we knew they where there
i look at what im writing, and i feel like an idiot! on so many leevels, casue you've moved on you have a new girlfriend, but everytime i try to move on all i can do it think about you...

as we stood there making the promise we would be friends forever, and our friendship wouldnt end just summer ended, i knew it was a promise that you couldnt keep, all i did was hope that i was wrong..