Saturday, February 28, 2009

yesterday is dead and over.

this is your life. are you who you wanna be?
is it everything you dreamed it would be?
today is all you got.
today is all you'll ever have.
don't close your eyes.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

life is so beautiful.
there is so much hope in the shinning star, in the sun and in the sunsets that rise each morning.
your life, your smile, your eyes give me hope.
i thank God every day for putting you in my life.
i thank God for the sunshine.
i ask God for strength and that i would never lose the beauty of the world.
i want to be happy. i want my wildest dreams to come true.
i wanna save lives.
i wanna change the world.
and i thank you Lord that you gave me a passion.
give me the strength to never lose or give up on my passion and my dreams.
i never wanna lose this beauty, people tell me that im just young and one day ill become jaded.
but i don't believe them.
i never wanna lose this feelings.
and i never think i will, i will always be a little girl at heart.
i got one shot at life, i don't wanna watch it pass me by.

breathe.

lets just try to keep busy,
cause when im busy it means there is no time to think.
no time to over analyze and no time to worry.

but don't think this means that i have forgotten.
don't think this means i don't care.
i honestly care about you more than you know.


and a reminder;
don't forget to breathe,
cause everyone loves when your 6 feet under.

Monday, February 23, 2009

please; don't give up. you have to much going for you.

i just want you to trust me. i want you to know me. i need you to know me. i want you to open up. i want to see your smile. i want you to be happy. i would do anything to see you smile. i would anything to make your day even if it meant wrecking mine. i don't want to lose my passion. i don't wanna lose my strenght. i don't wanna lost my heart, my soul. it makes me stomach cringe. it makes me heart hurt. it makes my eyes water. i can't imagine losing you. it is a horrible feeling thinking that i could lose you. to think that you would fall. to think that you could break. please lean on me. please cry with me. please laugh with me. please smile with me. your big brown eyes suck me in. your smile makes me fall again and again. i could be your favorite blue jeans with the hole in the knees. i could be the girl next door. im the good girl. im a people pleasure. i don't ever wanna hurt you. i can't imagine the pain. im scared to lose you. im scared that it won't be the same. what if im not your best friend anymore. what if we lose potential. what if you can't call me. what if you run away, please run to me, and we'll go together. lets leave this place. lets start over. lets beginning again. lets start over. please just be honest. with me. with yourself. don't hide your heart. don't hide your tears. i would do more than you know to see you smile. your happiness means so much to me. lets just waste our days in the sun. lets just waste our time in California, New Zealand; where ever you wanna go. i need you to know im here. i need you to know i care. your alive. im on your side. you matter. your life matters. you are meant to be happy. if you are anything but happy; it is not over. if something hurts you; you need to get out. today is a new day. today may be your day.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

am i in over my head.

don't mind me

if i get weak in the knees;

you have that affect on me

Saturday, February 21, 2009

just some quotes.


we fall for boys who give us pretty words and false hope.

If I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that are people starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they are upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't change the fact that you have what you have.

-The Perks of Being a Wallflower

when i was 5 years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life. when i went toschool, they asked me what I wanted to be when i grew up.i wrote down "happy" they told me I didn't understand the assignment, and I told them they didn't understand life.

let your heart guide you.it whispers so listen carefully

"maybe the happy ending is just moving on."
-he's just not that into you
"one day you'll meet the perfect guy and have you're own happy ending."
-he's just not that into you
"you're voice doesn't match your face."
-he's just not that into you

"you won't fall in love if you don't take risks."
-he's just not that into you
"the ones who don't try to fit in. stand out."
-he's just not that into you

Friday, February 13, 2009

noone cares more about your dreams than you.

"lets promise to never be too scared to live our dreams."

"go ahead and tell me my dreams are unrealistic
i'll tel you that yours aren't big enough"

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Blue like Jazz **

i have been reading this book; and there are two huge parts that i read yesterday that stuck out that i wanted too share:

"I should be living in community. He said I should have people around bugging me and gettting under my skin because without people I could not grow- I could not grow in God, and I could not grow as a human."


"If we are not willing to wake up in the morning and die to ourselves, perhaps we should ask ourselves whether or not we are really following Jesus."

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

hello; i miss you quite terribly.


when do you become too far in?
am i in too deep?




he makes me smile.
it's not just any regular smile either.
it's that radiant smile you know that one get
when you know you fallen head over heels for that one boy.

Friday, February 6, 2009

a bunch of mumbo jumbo.

i'm scared of losing you. i'm scared of falling. please don't forget about me. i'm done taking time apart. i'm done screaming for help. you're eyes are darker in the winter and lighter in the summer. your smirk makes me smile. i miss our phone talks. i miss the summer nights where nothing mattered. i missing sitting under the stars. i want everyone to know im yours. i wanna hear your laugh. i wanna see your smile. silly boy. you can make me laugh. you know what too say. you're bolder than i could have ever though. so much was said. yet there is so many lose ends. i said too much, yet not enough. no regrets. you're gonna do alot of growing. alot of soul searching. lets just see where we go. lets play this by ear. lets follow our hearts. just be true to yourself. be true to me. whats meant to be will always find it way. i wanna hear your heart beat. i want you to hear my heart beat. i need you honestly. i need the truth. i want you to promise me. just don't give up. on me. on you. we need to work at friendship. i need to be told im loved. i want to get butterflies when you walk in the room. i wanna scream so loud that the truth is revealed. don't tell me were okay. don't tell me we are not okay. tell me how you feel. tell me what is real. tell me if i got a chance. tell me if you want to be my friend. i'm not gonna waste my time on someone who doesn't care back. thats not fair. i give too much of myself away like that. everyone loves when your 6 feet under. i can't breathe. helpless. i'm not sure if i can yet. friends are so important.i don't EVER wanna take a friend for guaranted again. i wanna tell you how much you mean to me everyday. if you're done please tell me. tell me why. no regrets. you're just one chapter of my life. there will be more. don't be afraid to fall in love again. i need you. please don't let go. and if you must, tell me why. keep me in the loop. i don't ever wanna lose you. your friendship means alot to me. don't ever doubt that. i would never wanna lose you. i would never wanna break your trust. i dont wanna treat your secrets like they are meaningless. i never meant to hurt you. i never meant to cause you trouble. if were all alone, were all together in that too. small talk. be random. hip bones make me go wow. the way your hair falls in your face. the way your eyes tell me the things you never could. lets not forget to see the beauty in the world. the beauty of life. laughter is more important than we see. your smile. i miss you. lets be friends forever. best friends. your heart is just so big. im just so vunerable. your eyes scream of stories that i understand more than you know. your life gives me hope. your faith is stronger than you think. im stronger than i think. you shine so bright. i would be lost without you. happiness is key. let me love you. tell me how much i mean too you. tell me my name. tell me my favoraite colour. lets stay up talking all night. lets talk about spaceships and our future plans. lets never be too scared to live our dreams. just trust me. give me another shot. tell me where i went wrong. tell me the mistakes i've me. tell me where i have done you wrong. just be honest. lay everything on the table. im ready. putting things on the table has been my life for the last 2 weeks. im not afaird of what you have to say. tears my fall. smiles may fade. but they willk come back. i promise that your joy will come back. just remember to smile. remember to love. remember to care. don't forget your passion. we spend to much time waiting. wanting. hoping. i wanna make things right. you're more imporant than you know.
love.

Monday, February 2, 2009

your beauty shines so bright.

random. crazy. all you need is love. don't lose hope. life is more than just existing. youth church. my grandmas a hottie. i love sunshine. flips flops and skinny jeans. friends. who needs boys; when you got friends. piggy back rides. Jesus. camp. summer. i'm by your side. sleepovers. adventures. piercings. tattos. i hate fighting. pain is anger. make love not war. don't pick sides. i won't lie. lets not forget our purpose. there is a purpose for the pain. God knocks. my feet get cold; so i like socks with flip flops or flats. i hate losing friends. people always leave; but we foget that they come back. coffee rocks. new zealand looks beautiful. horses are so free. twloha. texting is overrated sometimes. phone talks can be fun. highschool=drama. im ready for being 18. interning. helping the hopeless. slurpees. blended strawberry lemonade with a pump of raspberry. your bass hurts my heart. my names chance; do i have one? you amaze me. you are loved please don't ever forget that. OTH. pretty eyes. smiles. how our heart breaks when our hero dies. you can't tell me i never mattered. fun. rainbows. mcds. mrmikes. my girls. curly hair. help gives hope. i wanna see you break those walls. masking taped heart. bubbly. faith. love. hope. these three remain. french braids. knowing God has a plan. pink. jeans. driving in a car full of friends. singing. dancing. your car. lets be friends forever. im afraid of losing you. we just need time. i wish you well. you will find love. lifes to short to regret. just laugh. balloons. chapstick. freedom. hottie for a grandma. worship. praise. truth. sermons. high cheek bones. great bone structure. eyelashes. family. never giving up. cardigains. flowers. candy. boredom sucks. plain. simple. complicated. open windows in the car. cold brezze. summer air. starry nights. buttons noses. one of a kind. shotty. waterfront. beautiful views. busy town. small city. im outta the box. not your normal teenaage girl. my heart breaks for you. i laugh with you. i miss you more than you know. i want to give you hope. i wanna help you stand when all you can do it fall. i wanna hold you. i want to show you how much i care for you. find your passion. don't lose sight. chilvary ain't dead. love stays strong. hope builds up. i wanna break down those walls you put up. i wanna save the day. i wanna save your day. i wanna stand up with you. lets do it different this time. lets breathe. take a step back. start from the beginning. see where the end leads us. we were all put together in this thing called life. lets not live it alone.
this is the same story you've
heard everytime before.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

i'm on your side.

"I wish you well,
I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself,
I wish you well, wish I could help,
but I can't help you find yourself "

i believe in you.