there is hope, i promise. there is help, i promise.

"I wish you knew that I only make all of

those cutting jokes because it's the
only way I know to ask for help."

there is love, i promise. there is light, i promise. and one day i honestly believe that im gonna change this world for the better, i will show the world God's love and how amazing it truly it, how much hope and love there is that's found in God. So please hang on tight, don't let go; one day you will feel God's love and you'll be saved. I'm praying for you; whoever you are.

than the lion fell in love with the lamb.

And i believe in chasing memories and holding on to what you think is true.
And I believe in climbing rainbows to see what's on the other side.
[Skye McGibney]

Lord we need your love to be present. hope and joy.

God i NEED you to reign right now in my life, and in the people that i love around me right now. I'm trying to hold it together, and be your hands and feeet and pretty much try to save the world! but its real hard God. and I know you're on my side and i wont go through anything today that we can't handle together. but some people around me really need some loving. and to not find love in a boy or in material things or in things that are of things world.. Lord please reign! break these people and let them love you Lord!
let us not worry but rejoice!

i share lip chap; you want some?

"happiness should depend on what you can give, not what you can get."

i think i need to strengthen my relationship with God even more. i think i need to give more and do more for Gods will; and not be so concerned with money, or clothes, or spending money stupid things like fast food or sugar. there is so much more that that money could be going to and that could be done in my free time rather than spending money. God has had this put on my heart for a couple weeks now.. and i need to do it, i need to strengthen my relationship with him and grow. this is the step i need.. its kinda like fasting. doing less/none of something that keeps you from getting closer to God and spending time extra time, money, supplies, energy on learning bout God and doing his will. and i think this is the next step i need, and it will be a great step to take before this summer comes into full play! this summer will be amazing! but this is the next step i need to take, just to see how much i will depend on God and how much i will hold to my promises and challenges to him and for him.
thank you Lord for being my saviour and loving me.

this will be a challenge, but i think
its a challenge that i need to take and
actually follow through with this time.
let go and let God take control of everything.

God please take over becuase I can not be in control of my life because i will make mistakes and i will constantly be going down the wrong path. lead my footsteps im 100% willing to follow you.
may your will be done.

one day your going to fall in love; i promise.

Take a look at yourself in a mirror. Who do you see looking back at you? Is it the person you wanna be? Or is there someone else you were meant to be? The person you should have been but fell short of. Is someone telling you that you can't or you won't because you can! Believe that love is out there. Believe that dreams come true everyday, cause they do. Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power, sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family. And the quiet nobility of leading a good life. Believe that dreams come true everyday, cause they do. So take a look in the mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be; believe that. And believe that dreams come true everyday, cause they do.

we should get a friendship tattoo! :)

i don't ever want to fall apart. i don't want to lose my strength. it's not even my strength to lose, it's God's strength that he has chosen to give to me. and this strength i need to hang on too and wake up every day, praying that God can grant me with that strength. to pull me through, to pull the people i love through. i don't ever want to think that i can't change the world. i don't ever want to think that i won't find my prince charming. i like pink. i like the way you say my name. i care about you to much to even think about me losing you. sometimes i feel like im losing you. im so glad we talked, more glad than you'll probably ever know. but it kinda caused me to miss you more. but that's okay im a tough girl, i can handle it. cause i got to hear stories. i got to hear how much you are growing. your sister said that you had said "my school is divided into two parts; the selfless and selfish. and i want to be part of the group that is selfless." this type of thing is what reminds me why he is on this trip. why he has to leave, the growth that he needed to make and has made so far. cause it's like we're are our brat pack. we're finally kicking back. that is that, it's like it's all we need. i hope you don't follow down that path. a new school next year for you will be good. i think we all kinda need the summer for some more growth. i think and believe that God will show you some amazing things this summer and some great soul searching. and you always have me 110% on your side. no matter the little fights or arguements we may go through, i still love you. and could never imagine losing you guys.. never. not over some stupid little thing. im so thankful for my friends. i think i would honestly be lost without them. the old ones, the new ones, the ones on the other side of the world, the ones on the island, the ones on who are stronger than they know. i love you all, so so much. i thank God for you everyday.

put a smile on; we always have tommorw.

let's bring hope to the hopeless.

lets phone talk?!?

i haven't talked to him in months! i have tried to call him multiple times,
but it never works; cause my luck sucks! and he called last night,
and tell me to call him back..that night(last night).. the one night my
phone is disconnected! the one night in ever that our phone is disconnected,
is the night he decides to calll. so im so choked! urgghhhh! so frustrating!!!
well im gonna try him tonight.. and i sure hope i get through.. cause i'll be
sad and even more choked if the one night he could talk.. i didn't realize he
could till it was too late! but i guesss if not tonight.. than another night soon!

i have a test tommorow and one thursday..
i sure hope i do good. i studying and stressed for them,
i really did! and i hope i get a good grade. and it can bring my class mark up!
cause she is almost donnne!

summmer is going to be so amazing this year! camp almost alll summer. and a family reunion. but camp, i will most likley get to counsel 80% of my time there! and i have some great new things planned for them! and some great activites! and God is gonna do some great things! i can already see the new friendship and life lessons learnt blossoming! cause God is so goood.

we could change a million lives for the better.

i tried letting go, but i don't know how to quit you.

boy; we'll take the world by storm, it isn't that hard.

no matter how dark the moment.
love and hope are always possible.

your love is amazing.

you take a deep deep breath and
you realize you've never been so ready.
it's all yours for the taking it just
depends on how much you want it.
this is where dreams and reality meet.

At the cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?

you can't deny those butterflies; that fill your gut.

'Every man at some point in his life is going to lose a battle. He is going to fight and he is going to lose. But what makes him a man is at the midst of that battle he does not lose himself.'

you're cute.

im kind of a fan of her tattoos(on her hipish area)
but maybe hearts rather than stars..?
but i like!
i also like the tattoo on the wrist
either the bottom of it or the inside of it.
with a heart or the word love.
one day.

your life is important.

you matter to me..
more than you know.
thank you for being my friend..
thank you for being apart of my life.

you can't fight back the moments that matter.

promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance;

and when you have the choice to sit it out or dance.
i hope you dance.

there is hope in everything, you just need to open your eyes to it.

do you ever feel like your world is about to fall apart.. its not quite there, but it is sure close! and all you can do is stand there and watch well things slowly seem to crash down around you?
have you ever felt that way?
this seems to happen in my world alot.. and i know that the only way i can not fall is with God..
this i know, but its so hard.. when you see her go around; doing things that i know she doesn't want too and doing things i know she will regret. when i see her in a relationship that i don't think is the best idea for her right now. when i see her having all these dreams.. and if i have anything to say about these dreams.. they will be cooming true! i promise this much. i see him just totally lost, so far from God. i see her screaming to be heard..but she thinks no one is gonna listen, i will listen. i see him on the other side of the world.. and i miss him, i know he needs this experience and its for the best.. but i still miss him. i see them trying so hard to hold it together..for me. i feel so far from him, and i wanna fix it, i want to change this.. but im not sure if we can at this point.. not at this moment at least.
i see me wanting to save all these people, help them to no fall... but i need to remember that i can not do anything for these people if i don't look to God for my help, guidance and strength. so please Lord,let me wake up everyday and ask you to take control, ask you for strength, as you to heal these people. because i love every single one of them more than they will ever know. and i would honestly be lost without them, and i truly mean that.. they are my community.
but you know what i have to say on top of all of this. God is good all the time. All the time God is good. and I will never forget this, no matter what my day brings. there is nothing that is going to happen to me today that me and God can't handle together. thank you Lord. I find so much hope everyday, even when my world looks like it is falling apart.. but i know there is hope because you love me. no matter what i do, you will love me no less or no more, your love is constant.
'Jesus knows how to humble us with out humiliating us and how to lift us up without flattering us'

i'm a friend of God. He calls me friend.

i'm so thankful for my amazing friends and the people that God has surrounded about me if life.
I always feel pushed, inspired and like im being held accountable to something bigger than myself. to God and his love for me.
i love laughing with my friends, and i never really noticed how we do it till someone commented on it tonight... they told me they LOVED the joy me and all my friends had, we kept each other laughing and have fun.. and its so so true.
i thank you God for this.