we should get a friendship tattoo! :)

i don't ever want to fall apart. i don't want to lose my strength. it's not even my strength to lose, it's God's strength that he has chosen to give to me. and this strength i need to hang on too and wake up every day, praying that God can grant me with that strength. to pull me through, to pull the people i love through. i don't ever want to think that i can't change the world. i don't ever want to think that i won't find my prince charming. i like pink. i like the way you say my name. i care about you to much to even think about me losing you. sometimes i feel like im losing you. im so glad we talked, more glad than you'll probably ever know. but it kinda caused me to miss you more. but that's okay im a tough girl, i can handle it. cause i got to hear stories. i got to hear how much you are growing. your sister said that you had said "my school is divided into two parts; the selfless and selfish. and i want to be part of the group that is selfless." this type of thing is what reminds me why he is on this trip. why he has to leave, the growth that he needed to make and has made so far. cause it's like we're are our brat pack. we're finally kicking back. that is that, it's like it's all we need. i hope you don't follow down that path. a new school next year for you will be good. i think we all kinda need the summer for some more growth. i think and believe that God will show you some amazing things this summer and some great soul searching. and you always have me 110% on your side. no matter the little fights or arguements we may go through, i still love you. and could never imagine losing you guys.. never. not over some stupid little thing. im so thankful for my friends. i think i would honestly be lost without them. the old ones, the new ones, the ones on the other side of the world, the ones on the island, the ones on who are stronger than they know. i love you all, so so much. i thank God for you everyday.