i love you.

This aching of me won't go away,
but sometimes you have to ignore your own pain
to help someone else through theirs.

God,
even when everything in my world at home may seem to fall apart, remind me that I'm loved and that I have the ability to impact peoples lives and make a huge difference. I get the chance to serve at camp this summer; and it has been a week and I have been sick, cramps, draining of energy and this was the enemy trying to take my joy away. A test to see just how far I can be pushed, and i took this test and rejoiced through sickness, i put a smile on and loved those kids and prayed with the staff. It has only been a week and I have already learned so much. I thank God everyday for this experience I get and for the people that are surrounding me and loving me. I love because He first loved me. Thank you.

oh yeah. thats Britnee; she's the loud girl

woahh! so God is going to do alot of crazy stuff this summmer! im so stoked about it. staff training was this past weekend. and someone who i didn't really like fancyed me and i didn't tottaly fancy her made a HUGE impact on me! we we're at campfire and she was talking about how sometimes its hard to be at home and she gets discouraged but than she's like 'but i go on fb and see status; like Britnee's! she's always happy at camp, at home. she's great, you really should get to know her!' it blow me away that she said that! i started to cry. and yeah; i'm known as the loud girl but God will use that and he's gonna use me this summer. there are so many new staff that im so stoked to get to know. i had a problem with someone and i talked to nathan about some of it.. and he just said be blunt and honest and bold. and that what i want this summer! no drama, i've been hurt to much in the past by that and this summer it's not gonna happen. my focus is God and leading these kids to Christ. :) and i have friend all around me from before that are supporting me. and i have made new friends and i'm just stoked to see what God is going to do with me this summer. and i know that soon the 'future' talk is going to be coming up with my dad... im scared but i'm not worried about my future because i know God has a plan, and i really want my dad to understand that.. but i'm not so sure he will. but right now i need to focus on one day at a time! becuase i start thinking about september and school and future and that talk and i get scared and emotinal. so for now i need to focus on summer and follow God's path! cause who knows what i might miss if i don't! so Lord help me to stay focus this summer and not be in the drama but hold other accountable to not be in it aswell. God I'm tottaly open to your will this summer. so take me and lead me and i will follow! don't forget your heart is very decieving, so don't follow your heart! you need to lead your heart. ask God to lead your heart.

this is gonna be a good summer!

I'm going, going, gone!

life's to short to dwell on the unchangeable.

how can i not be happy.
how can i not feel safe.
how can i not feel loved.
how can i not be hopeful.
how can i not be joyful.
how can i not smile.
how can i not laugh.
how can i not love.
how can i not be thankful.

when i know that God
is in control of my life.

your existence gives me hope.

we don't even know what we're fighting for.

but i know i'm gonna fight,

harder than ever before.

i ain't got no fear, cause we're in this together.

it's a rainy afternoon;

lets save the world.

uh oh. i just inked! :)

everyone deserves to smile.

if something or someone makes you smile make sure you never let go of them.

it makes reality invisble and erases all the lines that you shouldn't cross

you have to remember with love,
your not the only one involved;
you unknowingly put your life,
your heart into the palm of anothers
hand and say 'here do what you will'

love isn't about feeling safe or
feeling sure about the future,
its about scaring every
nerve in our body and
pushing forward anyway

everyday's a gift and not a given right.

Maybe there is a reason you left.

Maybe there is a reason I miss you so much.
Maybe there's a lesson to learn here.
Maybe there are steps of faith to be taken.
Maybe there is a purpose behind it all.

i think i'm putting
things together.
one day at a time.
waking up to know
that the sun
is gonna rise today.
and thanking God
that im so blessed.

never settle for the path that leads to distance.

'You have given me a heartache. You'll never know what it's like to have to face the fact that you might let go; but I won't stand for any thoughts of that, heavens no. Cause I will cling to you and always have a stronger hold.'

letsmakeout.letsmakeout.letsmakeout.

Summmer=AMAZING!
im so stoked for what God is going to do this summer.
:)

friends to the end.

i find peace when i'm confused.
i find hope when i'm let down.
but not in me, me in you.

i have a pink pac man eraser; be jealous.

i find my self waiting a lot. waiting for things that may never happen. dreams that may never come true. people that may never come back in my life. calls that may never ring. love that may never be received. purpose that may not be seen till after. school to be done. drama to be a thing of the past. marriage to have God as a complete center. waiting to hear words that will never be said. waiting for promises to be kept. waiting for girls to stop growing up so fast. waiting to grad. waiting to move on from high school and be the change. waiting to know you. waiting till tomorrow. waiting till i see you next. we're always waiting for something or someone. but i wanna live in the moment! i wanna love without holding back. i wanna give till i fall on my knees. i want to fall on my knees and have to ask God for strength. i want to be challenged everyday. i want to be broken so i can be repaired. i want to love. i want to give. i want to hold on. i want to let go. i want to move on. i wanna say no. i wanna take risks. i wanna hold you hand. i want to be a part of something bigger than myself.

so lets stop waiting
and start doing.

you're gonna move mountains kid.

so hurry up and get out there!
there are mountains waiting to be moved.
and lives waiting to be changed!

i'd do anything for you. i wish you knew that.

"Love is not love until love’s vulnerable."
-Theodore Roethke

i need you to know i love you.

"sometimes you have to keep loving until they stop pushing."

believe that; cause its true, i've seen it.